Why Did You Eat That Gnocchi?

To: Future Joshua
From: Past Joshua
Date: Thursday, 23 September, 2010

Subject: Why did you eat that gnocchi?


Dear Future Me,

It's 2pm on Tuesday, 22nd September 2009 and you had gnocchi for lunch. Now you're sitting here typing away while the potatoes and cream go bubbly in your stomach. You've been stinking up the place with your hot farts. The question is, why the hell do you do it to yourself?

For the last couple of weeks, you've been dealing with stomach problems that's seen you go to three different doctors and subjected to as many tests: a gastroscopy exam, an ultrasound and a course of blood work. You don't know the results yet, though you suspect it might be gall stones. Deep down, however, know that it will probably turn out to be nothing. You'll know the results by Thursday.

It's roughly four months away until Christmas. Your whole family is going overseas and for the very first time in your life, you're not going to be with them. You've decided to stay home for Christmas with the idea that you're doing so to save money. You are in considerable amount of debt and finding it a challenge to keep up. How is it now?

The other reason you've decided to stay is because of a boy. You've reconnected with a friend you met ten years ago. His name is Brian. He was involved with your other friend, Tristan. Do you remember? For Christmas, he is visiting from Canada and will be spending time with you for two weeks. You are excited to see him and is very much looking forward to his company. At the same time, you're worried because you have put on some weight and feel that you won't lose this in time. You want to look good for Brian because you know that there is some serious attraction between the two of you and sex is inevitable. You also know he has a boyfriend. Do you care? Perhaps not.

Your life is filled with challenges right now - work, money, health are your stumbling blocks - but you're also blessed. You have a six-month old nephew whom you adore and feel privilege to watch grow.

You love your family deeply, despite of the recent argument you've had with your mother but that happens. You think she's going through menopause. You have an envious life and you have great friends. Remember this even though at times your mood swings erratically and you want nothing more than to be left alone.

You are still single, despite offers from several suitors. You're still as fussy as ever. Perhaps you wear your independence as a shield?

You are also two months away from being thirty. You are excited but scared at the same time. You know you need to start living like an adult, though you don't really understand what that means. You also need to start looking for a place to celebrate, so get your fat arse moving. Where did you end up booking?

Ryan, I know today is tough for you and you feel sad for no particular reason. Never forget that you're surrounded by people whom you love and love you. Feel happy.

So a year on, what's your life like now? And are you still eating those damn gnocchi?


Yours,

Past Me.