Seriously.

It seems lately that my moods, thought patterns and general outlook are on a roller coaster ride worse than the performance of the Aussie dollar. So, I'll refrain from blogging anything deep and introspective lest I sound totally manic and bipolar.

Instead, I'll just post this pic.

Cutest photo you'll see all day... and hella disturbing, too. Seriously.

Look, Point and Whisper

Last Friday for Halloween, a friend and I attended a dress-up party. I kitted up as a dark angel, almost Gothic, while my mate came as a Sith Lord from Star Wars. When we got to the venue, I saw Jules there. I knew he'd be at the party since one of the owners of the house we were partying at is his best friend.

Immediately, I sensed his excitement to see me - and throughout the evening, he pretty much didn't leave my side. A few times during the night I caught sight of his best friend whispering at other friends while looking at Jules and I. It wasn't hard to guess that they weren't merely talking about my "Brandon Lee in Crow" inspired outfit. They were talking about the two of us.

It made me wonder what Jules has already said to his friends. We've never really said anything about seeing each other but we're obviously in each other's company. I found the whole 'look, point and whisper' thing somewhat strange and surreptitious.

I guess there might really be more to this than just emails and coffees.

What A Boy Needs

I'm writing this post at two in the morning because I can. And because I no longer have to get up early for work on Monday mornings. That fact alone is the reason why I'm currently feeling chilled and happy to be still awake, alert and sleepless when I'd normally be all panicky and stressed by now.

The weekend was really awesome. I know that seems like a very juvenile word to use, but it really was. I don't know how best describe it. Almost life-affirming and amazing all at the same time.

For one, it's a long weekend in Melbourne, which has set this almost contradicting low-key party vibe to the whole city. Driving home, it was great to see so many people still being out and about so late in the evening. It's kinda electric.

Lately I've had this feeling of being disconnected with people around me. Part of this is the stress of work and various commitments piling up, but mostly it's a sense of disengagement from those who I normally consider my anchor.

My family and I haven't been spending much time together - and when we do, I get this feeling of being out of sync from them. They seem to be cohesive in their interests and pursuits and I'm feeling on the outer. Not really anybody's fault and I love them to death, but I guess I'm just starting to realise that what I find stimulating is something they wouldn't - and vice versa.

At the other end of the scale is this uncanny experience I'm having of meeting so many new people who are on the same wavelength as I am. Most are into creative arts and they have similar passion and understanding about it that I can really appreciate. If not, they are at least open to listening and learning. The reason for this post-Sunday glow is that this very thing happened at a friend's birthday dinner tonight. Discussions over traveling, music and creativity has given me that feeling of connection and a sense of validation that I've been sorely lacking.

Yeah, I can get totally precious and pissy at times, but really, all a boy truly needs is to be understood once in a while.